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shadow | light

Welcome!  Thank you so much for joining me here for this virtual art exhibit. 
This collection of my original ink paintings, poetry, and photography is designed to be an intimately personal exploration of duality - depth and radiance, darkness and levity, heaviness and weightlessness, and all the spaces in between.  

Pour yourself a gentle glass of wine if you feel so inclined, perhaps a snackish something, and go ahead and set the mood with this music playlist I curated just for you my darling.  
Take your time, and enjoy!


Becca Fox

I keep forgetting

Am I falling?

Am I willing to acknowledge my own fears and flaws and shadows?  To truly bring them to light?

And to what end?
Am I willing to change?
Am I willing to try another way?

If my shadows get their turn in the light at last perhaps they’ll drink their fill

And then might I make room here instead for something  more authentic than these tired illusions and disguises?

These games I play to keep the shadows hidden in the depths

And am I brave enough to show my light as well?
That light that hides more quietly and secretly

Which was never allowed
Always too much and too little. a little strange and never quite right

If I dare not ask for validation, praise, attention, can she be allowed here just to be? 

Would they still reject her then?

I think its time she hears me say that I don't care

She matters anyway

She always has

Lost | found

How do I describe the stretching of my heart?

The aching in my shoulders

For something I can never touch

Reflections in a silken lake in moonlight

I see here there so clearly across the chasm

I lost her somewhere

But I couldn't forget

How it felt to be pure and at ease

And how I long to reclaim her


"It's dark because you are trying too hard. Lightly child, lightly. Learn to do everything lightly. Yes, feel lightly even though you're feeling deeply. Just lightly let things happen and lightly cope with them. I was so preposterously serious in those days... Lightly, lightly - it's the best advice ever given me... So throw away your baggage and go forward. There are quicksands all about you, sucking at your feet, trying to suck you down into fear and self-pity and despair. That's why you must walk so lightly. Lightly my darling..."

- Aldous Huxley

So much has changed.

Mostly me... I've changed.

I've opened and blossomed and learned and let go. I found new pieces of myself to love and learned how to share a new version of myself. A lighter one, more joyful, but also much more real. Less afraid of the shadows.

I had to go through it. Like we all do.
There's really no way around it. I mean, surviving is one thing, but healing...whew! That's the real journey.

It doesn't stop but after a while it does slow down. It stops feeling quite so cataclysmic and shattering. The boxes you're unpacking get smaller and less heavy and you can open one up and think "Oh yes, I know just what to do with this one"

Let's go back an unpack the heavy boxes now. Let's discover what lightness we can create when we spill their guts all over the carpet and see what we've been hiding.

Let's witness the smoky ink stains on weightless paper and the way teardrops well up and hover in our eyes for a moment before they plunk down our cheeks.

Let's marvel at the shapes our bodies make in the collapsing and the getting back on our feet and all the movements in between.

Let's wonder at the ridiculous things that make us laugh hysterically at the end of a horrid fucking sleep-deprived night, and the way kindness offered freely can make us sob.


I wanted to be a shiny object
A shiny object I thought, is so desirable
And all the other stones wanted to be so desirable
I must have been good at being shiny
Because they wanted to touch me
Pick me up 
Play with and possess me
I learned how to be appealing, peeling
I couldn't tell anyone I didn't like the way it felt
When they fingered my youthful sheen in the theater courtyard
How could I complain about being shiny?
When they complained of being plain
Shiny objects are given so much affection 
Or is it attention?
And I must have known they weren't supposed to rub me that way
Not in those places
But shiny objects aren't supposed to talk
And I was afraid that if I spoke or tried to roll away
They'd find out I was only pretending to be shiny
And toss me aside like a worthless rock
So the shame sunk deep into mineral deposits and colored my surface in streaks
It wasn't until years later, after selfish hands had worn down my polish
Misused and abused me
That I realized the shine was nothing but a shield I'd used in vain to reflect and deflect every gentle caress
Hands that might have felt my bumps and jagged textures
Hands I feared would judge, reject, undo me
Hands that if I'd let them, might have held me
In the way a shiny object can never be held
But treasured like an uncut gem


The sort where the outer layer of composure is so thin and fragile
that you really mustn’t be so kind 
or ask her “so how are you doing, really?”
with that sweet turn of the head
or she might just actually shatter
and she’d so hate to burden you with her
too much
because it’s already
too much
for her
and that’s why she has to release it little by little you see,
only in the safe spaces,
like releasing air slowly from a pressure valve.
She’s alright really I promise. And also not and that’s alright too.
Mostly she just needs to get some rest

Can fear and courage exist in the same breath?

on hard things

I have chosen my hard and I feel quite certain that it is the right choice in spite of the cataclysmic shattering. 

Perhaps one day I will have a beautiful garden of my own growing here

There were times I thought
How on earth can I get through this
It’s too unbearable
It will have to snap me in two
Kill me - I simply can’t endure
I prayed for any end
Until out of those dark corners
I spied someone stronger
I didn’t recognize her
My companion in those desolate tunnels
But she was stubborn like me

I watched her struggle and oh how I resented her

Just give up already!
What is there left to fight for?!
She didn’t get it
Every day she’d get to work
Solving problems and finding bright spots
Uncovering secrets I’d hidden away
And she dragged me kicking and screaming through the mud
Out of the depths
Baby step by baby step
Until I looked at her one day
And saw what I was made of


They say to forgive, just don't forget. I'm not so sure.

There are a lot of things I want to forget. Like the days I felt so worthless I could've crawled into the mold in the shower door to die. I want to forget the lies I told to protect the truth I didn't want to see.
I want to forget the embedded belief that happiness never lasts for long, that the bottom will fall out at any moment now | the shoe will drop | its going to blow because happiness like this is dangerous and I want my body to forget the call to flee or fight or freeze or fall apart when the sink is full of dishes and I've forgotten something important and I've been misunderstood again and "no...please...wait...I shouldn't have said that. I'm sorry"
I want to forget the memories that surface in the middle of the night when I wake up sweating and shaking and whimpering after dreaming of nightmarish eels dragging me under.

Forgiveness is not so easy

of all the shackles

that bind me, dim me, restrain me

How many of these are only illusions of my own invention?

The Louder the Dogs Bark, the less a lion feels threatened

-- Matshona Dhilwayo

Forget | Forgive

It's just that anger is hard to process you know? It comes out of me in little spurts still. Some days I back pedal. Not for no reason. Another layer gets peeled back and I'm right back in it again. Reeling. Seething. Questioning why. 

Except I do know why, and it changes fucking nothing

Mostly now I just feel sorry. 

Sorry that I spent so many years trying to push a cart with broken wheels and spikes on the handles

Sorry that I drowned myself in your pain and forgot it wasn't mine to swim in
Sorry that I couldn't heal myself without first burning it all down

Sorry I didn't know better

I guess it wasn't all for nothing though was it?
I learned what love isn't

And I found that strength that survivors talk about, like:

Because of this I can feel more deeply, fight more bravely, speak more powerfully, and hold my calmest center through the wildest storms

Because you ran your rollercoaster into my castle, I had the chance to rebuild the whole damn park

Because I withered in our chaotic grip, I learned how to birth myself again in a whole new light

Because the picture changed, I took apart the puzzle and began undoing the patterns that threw us at each other to begin with

Because of us I am healthier and happier than I have ever been

Forgetting is not so easy

I drank the rain

The ocean isn't deep enough

The planets don't spin fast enough

The clouds are filled with heaviness

And I?

I crave the rain

Rain in the desert is a beautiful thing

It can wash all the gravel from my feet

And fill me with something so complete

It grows in the cracks between stone slabs

Worn down by former storms

Touch it too softly and it may shatter

But still

I drank the rain


If eagles could swim, well I believe they would
And if fish could fly, I believe they would
But we can't dream in fantasies like this can we dear?
The heartbreak is too much to bear when we realize the real world doesn't care

Why do we believe we must be perfect to be loved?
Why do we so stubbornly believe there's not enough?
Are we here to live or are we only here to die?

But when I see the sunrise
I feel a little more alive

I know I don't more than you
And you don't know more than me
Just another human trying to muddle my way through
If I pour myself into you, will you pour into me?

Why do I believe I must be perfect to be loved?
Why do I so stubbornly believe I'm not enough?
And am I here for reasons or am I only here to try?

Darling when I see the sunrise
I feel more alive

I just want to catch my breath again, in the moments in between.
Let me remember I'm safe here in this bed.
Allow me to relax into unknowns.
Help me breathe into the quiet of the in-betweens.
Lend me the space to hear my heart. 

When you hold me, the muscles in my shoulders fall, and that was all I needed after all.


Patience dearest
Small steps are okay too
You're doing so much more than you know
Or perhaps you do know
It's okay to give yourself some credit too
Day by day you're doing it
Things just take some time to unfold
It is not selfish to take this time to heal and grow stronger
It is not a crime to indulge in yourself a little
To nourish yourself
To explore and reclaim the hidden parts
Your service will be better for it
Your love, kinder
Take heart, have courage
There are no wrong answers here
Nor right ones


My creative spirit lives in a changeable cavern of collected art supplies, self-important poetry, vibrant vulnerabilities, and cleansing dreams that come in every shade of blue. Spaces that carve out a home for my esoteric practice, my radical visions, my intuitive movements, my most spiritual self expression. The pictures that appear deep below the surface when I'm waking, resting, playing, exploring, existing unfiltered. 

This is the one that has been with me always, since before I could walk or talk or even cry out for validation. Before anyone told me this wasn't a proper sort of place to raise a family. Before anyone told me it was too fanciful a fairytale to spend any time with. This is the one that calls to me at twilight in whale song whenever I'm away too long and invites me to walk barefoot in the mud and dive deep into an ocean full of stars.


Rewrite the rules if you need to
Do what brings you joy
Eat the foods you like and not the ones you don't
Lay on the floor
Welcome ease and comfort like its a goddamn right
Because it is actually
Dare to do it wrong, do it different, do it just because
Be unconventional
As eccentric as you please
Recreate your life from scratch if you need to
Build it from the ground up
Make a new dream that's just for you and be bold enough to trust yourself this time around

found | lost

Just for a second darling, can we notice the house we have built?
Can we sit in the garden and take in the scent of the flowers we grew here?
Alone, through the winter, we dug in the soil
And pushed through the dirt like worms
Into the darkest of fears
The most painful of wounds
And we swallowed them whole out of love and moved through it
wriggle by wriggle
Until each unearthed remnant becomes part of our grounding
but richer, more fertile, broken open for planting new seeds
for the roses that bloom here
with thorns to protect us
green leaves to nourish
and petals of soft pinks and blood reds
and hues like the sun
when it rises

care instructions


Feed and water regularly


Allow plenty of sunlight and time outdoors


No olives. They are gross


To see her dance simply play music and pretend not to watch


For best results, bring her coffee every morning


Battery must be recharged monthly by setting her out to bathe in the light of the full moon


Follow all safety precautions


Handle with care

tangled | unfettered

Sometimes darling, I just like to be free for a little while
Without a single task, activity, or intention
Just listening
To the evening chorus of birds puttering in the trees
The planes flying overhead
I imagine what it would feel like to let everything go
To release the tension in my shoulders and jaw
Abandon my judgement, explanation, or deeper meaning
And simply notice
The chill of the air on my legs
The crinkling of leaves skipping across the pavement

And I wonder if I grew a little garden of my own

Could I let it grow wild and unrefined

Tangled and unfettered

Calm like the morning breeze

after all this

i really am trying

From my own faraway fortress of safety, strength, and growth
I can love you now in a way so drastically removed from the way my child heart tried to

I can dare to nurture my own broken-open heart and walk with something like grace

To enjoy my happiness and still pray for yours

And allow my regrets, my grief, my anger, my triggers, my stories and lies to one by one dissolve in the shadows and burn up in the sun

Please say it again

I am allowed to be happy

Please say it again

I am allowed to have peace

Please, just one more time


She's dancing again

In the candlelight with the windows open on the second floor of an uncertain temporary home

The ink has yet to dry

But in the movements of her muscle memories she can feel the rumbling whisper of freedom and the song of rebirth

...or am I levitating?

Thank you!

What a treat it is to be able to bring my vision to life in this virtual space, and what an honor and a privilege to share my work with you here in this way!

You're welcome to return to this space as many times as you wish over the next year as I continue rolling out my collection of Shadow | Light limited-edition prints and products, which will be available exclusively here on my website.

As always, please don't hesitate to reach out to say hi and let me know how this work resonates with you. 

Becca Fox


An update, June 2023 :   Thank you my darlings for the incredible responses and feedback I've received from you about this collection since its launch. The personal stories and messages I've received have touched me deeply. As you know, this work came with rather a healthy helping of vulnerability and raw expression, and as such I've rather done her a disservice in terms of promoting the collection and putting her out there. I sort of released the thing and then put it right out of sight, out of mind if you will. Your support in appreciating and sharing my work amongst your networks means the world to me. 

That being said, I am excited to announce that I will be extending the shop collection in the near future to include a few additional products and a very limited run of beautiful hardcover books (think your favorite coffee table book) which will include a few precious nuggets of previously un-released artwork and poetry. 

In other news, I am making progress on my next collection, FULL SPECTRUM. I don't have a release date yet, but it's looking to be some time in 2024. 




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